The Lost Glory

There is nothing much to think about this.” said Sudhakaran Nair, the local committee member.

Exactly”, my neighbor cum best friend Kunjali second Nair’s opinion by tightening the brown floral print lungi once more.

Ego is a big issue”, Nair continued, “and if you keep holding to it by adhering to your century old principles, then think about Vishalam and kids. Then, it is not a sin or a mistake. So many people, even your friends, do so.

The blue bucket, kept next to the front door, was filled with rainwater. Though the water was slightly muddy, it reflected Vishalam’s face. The expression on her face is very familiar. Regret filled expression; regret for marrying me. She stood there silently and she has been protesting the struggles and poverty with her silence. When her best friends are happy in their lives and have many reasons to be happy in life, Vishalam’s protest is her freedom of expression.

So where did we stop?” Nair spat to the courtyard. The murukaan* together his saliva flowed sailed on the rain water towards the jack fruit tree.

Yes, so receive this amount as an advance amount. There is Rs.5000 in the packet. Kunjali, give the packet to him”, Nair ordered. Kunjali opened his faded black ‘broker‘ bag and took out a packet covered with the national daily Malayala Manorama.

I looked at Vishalam and she went inside the house murmuring. Kunjali looked at me and reassured me by tightly closing his eyes and squeezing my wrists.

Kunjali and the local committee people dispersed as they had better works to do before the sun sets. House flies flew from one tea glass to the other licking the left over drops of tea. I went inside the house and Vishalam appeared from nowhere. My hands automatically stretched towards her and she grabbed the packet from me. Her eyes tinkled with relief and she locked the money in the wooden cupboard. Though I wanted to tell her that such things make me sad and hurt, I didn’t tell her a word.

Couple of months back when such an offer came,she forced me to accept it. The offer was from a gang of tourists. Nair came running to my house that day and danced in joy. He showed two thousand rupee notes and explained everything that had happened at the Mallika tea shop an hour ago. The gang wants to watch Kathakali live.”Put on the costume and be ready by 9PM”, Nair told me before leaving the house after stuffing those two thousand rupee notes in my shirt’s pocket.

Kunjappu rushed inside the house with a big excited and smiling face.”Aashane**, let’s do this solo performance every time we get an opportunity. I will get the makeup colors and costumes.”He hurriedly went out of the room and then returned in the same speed and said, “Everybody is doing this nowadays. There is no shame in it. Please don’t think too much. You take bath; I will be back in some time.”Thus I performed in front of a crowd which consisted of ten curious tourists and twenty-five yawning and half asleep local fellows. It became a routine to perform in front of non enthusiastic crowds. Later it become worse that people don’t want to watch the performance as it is boring and long. So, I went to become a hay-man dressed in the Kathakali costume and strangers stood next to me and clicked pictures. One day evening, while coming back from the temple, I heard people sitting at the tea shop commenting about me-“All he needs to do is to dress up and stand in front of the house, and he gets money. At least, the hard work he had put in for learning the art didn’t go waste. Easiest of all the jobs.”, and they laughed at me. My skin rotted out of embarrassment and the reality struck me like a lightening. Years of effort and learning invested in the art wasn’t to be embarrassed this way and I decided not to continue this business.Vishalam bursted like a volcano when I told her my decision but I wasn’t ready to give up on my decision.

The current offer is to perform in a movie and everybody is so excited about it. The van came around 10 next morning and a group of local crowd was inside it. Kunjappu help me to get inside the van and I sat on the stool kept aside exclusively for me. We reached the shooting spot and met the production controller. He told us to wait and we waited for so long that the group started dispersing slowly. Kunjali asked me whether I want him to stay back but I said no.

The dance master came to me and introduced himself and the assistant director informed me that the shot is ready.

You just have to stand there next to Kuthuvilikakku and do some mudras”, said the director.

Mudras?”, I asked him in confusion.

”Yes, you can do couple of mudras; we have the hero and heroine dancing and we want you to dance in the background. The arrangements are done to look like a Kathakali performance is happening while the hero and heroine romance and dance.

I said nothing and even before I moved my hands, the dance master told the director, “How about he dancing for the same steps which the couple are dancing? It will be a variety element.”

And I ended up dancing few folk steps in a Kathakali costume. After the shot, the production controller gave me a couple of five hundred rupee notes and thanked me.

It was dark and there was no way to know what time it was but I didn’t stop walking. When I turned back, I saw the production controller running towards me.

I forgot to tell you. There is a scene where the hero tries out the Kathakali costume. It is a small comedy scene. If you can rent us your costume, please let Nair know.”

I stood silently.

“Don’t worry, we will pay you a big amount.”, he said winking at me.

I turned back and walked and the remixed version of Santhana Gopalam was playing in full volume behind me.


*Pan Masala,** Teacher

Favorite Hits of 2011


Theeye Theeye – Chappa Kurish

The song comes at the right time in the movie making us feel the helplessness of the characters.

Amruthamaay – Sneha Veedu

I am a great fan of Sathyan Anthikkad and I don’t miss out watching any of his movies.But Ilayaraja failed to show any innovation.But I loved this song mainly because of the beauty of the video and Hariharan did his job nicely.

Melemanath – Manikyakallu
There are chances that people must have not noticed this song.But I would say Devanand has sung it so beautifully that we will feel like we are walking through the roads of a village.

Ee Puzhayum – Indian Rupee

This song from Indian Rupee will be one of the feats of Vijay Yesudas.Though Ranjith didn’t do the choreography of this well,I am sure people must have not bothered about the video.This soulful melody will soothe your ears.

Sayyave –  Christian Brothers

Another romantic number from Sankar mahadevan after pich avecha muthal.I think Lakshmi rai did add a flavor to this song by her beauty.Not a different one but still good.
Annan  – City of God
A tamil fast track number which can make you dance.I really liked the beats in the background.

Mazhathulli  – Pranayam

This is my favorite song of the year.Vijay Yesudas with Shreya Ghosal had done a magic with their voice.But AWESOME movie;I must say.
Chembavul  – Salt ‘n’ Pepper

Ah!!I was taken to my Mom’s kitchen after hearing this song.I recommend not to listen to this song if you are hungry.A Mouth-watering song!!
Oru madhura kinavin – Theja bhai and family

I liked the remixed version more than the original version because I heard the former one first.The choreography of the song of good though Akhila was seen out-of-place in the video.And of course Prithviraj simply rocked in this song video.
Pakalin  – Traffic

Though it was just a promo song,i would say it was a beautiful song.I liked the finishing part of the song.
Ariyumo  – Khaddama

A beautiful melody from Karthik.The song contained the pain of the heroine.
Chimmi chimmi  – Urumi

Manjari did a great job by singing this song.I am sure people will remember her for a long time.The video of the song was a cute one.




Criminal – Ra.One

Akon’s master piece and Kareena’s booty steps!!
I love you – Bodyguard

Sung by Ash King, Clinton Cerejo.Beautiful song..I used to feel like I am falling in loving all over again.I simply LOVE it.

Chori kiya re – Dabbang

A romantic melody from Sonu Nigam and Shreya Ghosal.A good one.

Aadat hai woh – Patiala House

For a difference,Akhshay Kumar was calm and quiet in most of the scenes.I like this song as its slow.A good one to listen while going to the bed.
Te amo – Dum Maro Dum

Te amo means ‘I Love You’ in Spanish and for me it has a loads of memories.
Khabon ki parindey –Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara

A soulful song which makes me dream a lot.A song which can take you far away from the present world.
Kun Faya Kun – Rockstar

I love Sufi related songs.I can listen to them a million times.Insha Allah!!

Katiya Karun – Rockstar

The only creative song of the year.In rest of the songs,there will be at least one part of the song where we will feel like ‘ah we have heard this bit some where’.

Rabba Mein Toh – Mausam

A lovely song.A song which captured the feeling crush!!


Infected by Writer’s Block Virus

The last post which I posted was on 26th August 2011;i.e. 65 days back.Occasionally I got a couple of comments and emails inquiring about my disappearance in the blogosphere.

Lately I realized that the writer’s block virus infected me which inhibited me from writing anything.But I recovered from it today,this moment.So here is my experience during the infection.

Before being infected,there was always an urge to write about a zillion things.So whatever thoughts that came to my mind,end of the day I could just shed it on my blog and feel relieved.There was a story in everything I saw and heard.I was not lazy to write.Once I open my WordPress,I can write it in a stretch.

During the infection time,my brain went restless.There were a lot of things that I wanted to write and discuss with the world,but I just couldn’t.The moment I open my blog,I feel lazy,bored and irritated.Instead I started reading more and more;almost like 7-8 books a month.My brother shouts at me seeing the growing pile of Flipkart card board boxes at the balcony.From English books I shifted to reading more of Malayalam books.In short there were more books surrounding me than I had it during school days.I started reading screenplays and dragged him for movies every weekend.All I wanted to do was to read and eat.Work,toastmasters,dance class and cooking made me busy when I was not reading.

Last night my head was  telling me to write out and finish off the frustration.So the first post I had in my mind was to write about the inhibited days.

At last I am cured.So keep checking for daily posts as I have LOADS to write.